evilcaramel

Ok. This is it. The official countdown. 10 more weeks until I leave Thailand for good and go back home. Am beginning to have mixed feelings about it. I remember when I first got here and up until last month, I couldn’t wait to leave and now that the end of my stay is nearing, am beginning to get cold feet about going home.

Funny how you think you want something so badly and yet when it’s finally given to you, you’re suddenly scared that it’s not as good as you were imagining it to be. Life is funny that way…

I’m also beginning to realize how much Bangkok has grown on me. Each thing that I used to take for granted, I now look at wistfully and now always think to myself that these are the last few times I’d be able to see this, do this, buy this, be with this person. Am trying to hold on to things here for as long as I can…taking pictures in my mind, relishing each experience of living here, trying to take in as much as I can on my last few weeks here.

I’m definitely glad to have been given this experience. And even if it was bittersweet, I wouldn’t have had it any other way I’ll remember this experience forever.